The Purpose of the Twin Flame Journey – My personal experience
In 2019 (I was 34 at the time) I became aware that I am in a twin soul connection with someone else. At the time I didn’t know it was called a twin soul or twin flame, but I wasn’t unfamiliar with spiritual connections either. So, when I found out what this specific connection was, I tried to learn as much as I could about the purpose of the Twin Flame Journey so that I would be able to learn the needed lessons from it. This, however, turned out to be a lot more difficult than I thought it would be.
During a Twin Flame Journey, Focus on your own healing
A Twin Flame Journey is, in all honesty, incredibly hard to go through and it almost feels like you are trapped in some kind of prison, with no means of escape. What makes it even harder though, I found, is that the information about this topic oftentimes is infused with terms that focus on all types of groups. For instance, the ‘divine feminine’, ‘the divine masculine’, ‘the collective’ and so on. I believe this can take our attention away from working very honestly on our own particular wounds, lessons and lack of self-love.
This is why I have chosen to share my personal perspective and realisations regarding learning how to want to be with yourself (which, I feel, is actually one of the main goals of this journey) instead of wanting to fit into any kind of group. My hope is that this will shed some light on the actual purpose of this intense and spiritual experience and that through that it will help other Twin Flames who are struggling to figure out what it is that their personal journey is asking from them.
Therefore, in my posts you will see a strong emphasis on living as and loving your true authentic self, on choosing for your own (especially spiritual) individuality and on connecting, from your heart, with God (I often use the name Krishna) and yourself. Over the years, including throughout the years before I awakened to my twin flame connection, I actively chose to follow my own heart and intuition, in several difficult situations, despite the expectations of my surroundings. The way I had handled these experiences eventually turned out to be what I needed to learn from my Twin Flame Journey as well.
My own experience that brought me to a much more peaceful place
During a particular breaking point where I found myself absolutely confused, tired and lost, I finally experienced a moment of intense clarity. I realized that, in my heart, I’d known all along what I personally needed to truly feel happy and satisfied with myself and my life. It had been in my life since my early twenties, Krishna consciousness, the devotion to Srimati Radharani and Sri Krishna. It was just simply a matter of daring to choose for that with my whole heart. A strong sense of self-doubt (in many areas in my life) had resulted in me not being able or willing to listen to that intuitive guidance for several years. I had carried that problem with me, deep down inside, my entire life. Both the 3D (physical) and 5D (spiritual) connection with my other half or twin soul brought this to the forefront very strongly.
It was incredibly painful, stressful and confusing for quite a few years, not knowing how to break through that lack of self-love (and seeing it reflected back to me through her), how to end the constant doubting of my own choices, experiences, intuition and feelings. But once I did, fully and completely, the connection with her, inside of me, also felt much more peaceful, solid and calm. Once I learned how to work on my wound regarding not trusting myself, I also grew more in self-love, in experiencing joy in my life again and in being able and even very much willing to just be with myself every day.
This brings me to my perspective on the purpose of the Twin Flame Journey.
Twin souls, one being and a lesson about God
I have come to see that the relationship between two twin souls (one soul split in two for several lifetimes) has a strong parallel with our individual relationship with God/Krishna. I believe the purpose of a Twin Flame Journey is to bring us back to that relationship in a very powerful way. This experience can, if you open yourself up to it, teach you about the unconditional love that eternally exists between God and you. This journey involves a lot of healing of old wounds and traumas though, because without that, without loving ourselves completely and wholly, we will never be able to truly experience that unconditional love, that has always been there, from and for God.
The incredibly deep pain that results from separation with our twin soul is a way of reminding us of how far we have drifted away from loving ourselves, from wanting to be with ourselves. Our twin soul shows us a mirror wherein we can see where and how we walked away from feeling unconditional love for who we truly are.
Seperation from Love was always an illusion
Coming back into that loving relationship between God and you, within your heart and on your own, will make you feel love in such a profound way, a way so deep that just being in that state makes you aware that you don’t have a need for anything else in life. This in and of itself is an incredible feeling. Having taken down all the barriers that kept you from absolutely loving yourself and God will bring you back to living from your heart, to being present with your true self as a pure, loving, loved and eternal soul. This beautiful and devotional relationship between you and God will make you feel completely fulfilled and whole again and that will show you that separation from love was always just an illusion.
Why the Twin Flame Journey stands on its own
Of course there are many more situations in life that ask of us to work on loving ourselves and/or that make us aware of this incredible love that exists between our Creator and us. What separates the Twin Flame Journey from other situations though is that it works on a much deeper level and it is especially something that is very hard, if not impossible, to walk away from. This forces us to dive immensely deep into our inner being to work on all our wounds, traumas and negative ways of dealing with ourselves. Our Twin Flame shows us in every way possible where we are not living in love with our true selves.
Taking up the task of very honestly working through every layer that comes up until we reach this serene place of true love within our heart will be the most difficult thing to go through, but it will eventually bring you the reward of coming back to the pure, eternal and unconditional loving relationship with God/Krishna and with yourself.
